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An empty box. A waste of wood, of gold, of effort. An empty box to fill a grave in which no body would ever rest. His mother and his sister could fill it with imagination and find closure in it, but not Zandros. Zandros knew exactly where his father’s bones would rest. And, Light, he hoped they were resting. That was a lie he could tell himself, at least. Resting — though not beneath sweet roses. Resting elsewhere, he could imagine, half buried in the mud. Resting, he hoped. Merely resting.

A golden medallion. Another worthless trinket. A gesture from the King to those who had braved the war and, against all odds, returned. A ceremony of a thousand men and women, and between them all half as many limbs as there ought to have been. The heavy pin on his chest would never be enough to balance the weight of a missing hand. It belonged in a drawer, he determined at once. Piled away beneath forgotten things. Buried.

He would never fight again. Even if his heart, his mind, his soul had wanted to — and, oh, how they desperately did not — his wound would always hold him back. Without his father, the burden of the family business would fall on him. All the better that he might occupy himself with something so quiet, he had thought, until he held a quill in his left hand and failed to write his own name.

And even his family name would fade. He was promised to a woman from a far-off place where he would surely be sent for the remainder of his days. Payment for their connection. And what of his old life would remain for him, then? What of the Alters? In a matter of years would they all be Durants? Consumed by a greater power, would they fade into obscurity?

A week passed by before Zandros could bring himself to return to his new family. After all, how could he face them as the wretch he had become? Would they comment on the way he wheezed? Would they stare at his stump? They would, certainly. They would focus on what had changed. They would ask after what was missing. And how could he tell them the worst of it? That the person they wanted to return — the one they would spare a thought for — had died to save him? Harrowheart had killed a dozen or a hundred good men that day only to save the one that he should have left to die.

When Zandros finally returns to the Nexus it isn’t in his typical finery. That morning when he’d bundled himself against the cold he found himself content in country beige and brown. It felt right, he noted as he made his way to Viatorus’ apartment, that no one should spare him a second thought. It was a sensation he’d never truly understood until he trudged through the snow with his shorn hair under a tweed cap and his stump arm hidden beneath the buttons of his jacket: Humility.

And he would need it in spades today.

In the late hours of the morning he knocks against the door of Viatorus’ apartment. It was the place he’d been when he’d last seen them. Where they’d last seen Harrowheart, he assumed. Remembering their last encounter with the death knight in the Nexus brought a chill into his soul. The glee that had warmed him as he’d heard him fighting the Durants now freezes his stomach. The memory of his joy turns to shame in his heart. What a demon he had been. What a loathsome man. All for a future he was no longer certain he wanted. Not certain he had ever wanted, really.

He knocks once more and hopes they might surprise him with their faces. He hadn’t warned them of his coming, he realized. Light, they might not even be home. If they didn’t show, would he have to face the Weatherhills instead? Would he have to be the one to tell them? He wasn’t sure he could bear that.

“Viatorus?” he calls. “Runa? I-... Isidor?” It's difficult to raise his voice, but he takes in a ragged breath and tries again, louder. “Is anybody home?”

Date: 2020-02-01 04:30 pm (UTC)
volurofthehearth: (Concern)
From: [personal profile] volurofthehearth
That answer is surprising, but a relief. She'd thought he might try to push himself, so the fact that he's allowing himself time to rest is unexpected, but good. She smiles and pats his hand. She shows him to the spare room that is designed with Isidor in mind, since she's the one who most often uses it. It's clean and ready to welcome him into a comfortable bed. Runa makes sure he has some biscuits and water on his bedside locker before she finally lets him be.

Cleaning up is a nice distraction, and she uses the excuse of not waking Zandros to slow herself down to an excruciating pace. Despite his request, she takes her sweet time in contacting the Durant siblings. She messages Viatorus first and waits for his delayed response before finally, slowly, messaging Isidor.

The patron is there within minutes.

"Where is he?" She demands, breaking the silence with something between fear and fury.

Runa, rushing out of the kitchen, shushes her as swiftly as she can. "He's sleeping!" Isidor's eyes jump towards the guest bedroom, but Runa puts a hand on her arm. "We'll wait for Viatorus."

Who arrives a moment later, having prepared himself as well as he possibly could. At least this time he has a shield to protect against the wave of emotions around him. Something he's grateful for the second he's in the same room as Isidor. Her jaw might be tightly shut, but her emotions are running wild.

"Right then." She turns to Runa. "Let's wake him up."

The völva gives her a stern look. "Be kind to him, Isidor."

That... actually chastens Isidor a little, the patron glancing downward with a light frown. They wait in silence while Runa knocks gently on the guest bedroom door. "Zandros," she calls softly, and then stronger, "Zandros? I wanted you to know that Isidor and Viatorus are here. Take your time to rest. Don't rush."

Don't rush. Isidor scowls at that, before folding her arms and trying to distract herself for what seems like an inevitable wait.

Date: 2020-02-01 05:32 pm (UTC)
volurofthehearth: (Concern)
From: [personal profile] volurofthehearth
Now that she's gotten over the initial shock of his missing arm, Runa is all encouraging smiles. She guides him closer with gentle touches, hoping to encourage him into a seat. Viatorus almost immediately looks guilty at his obvious surprise. Meanwhile Isidor looks over him with an expression that's hard to read, although it's clear she's thinking something.

After the silence that follows Zandros' prompt, Viatorus nervously asks, "How are you?"

"What a stupid question," Isidor says, looking to her brother as if offended on Zandros' behalf.

Eager to put kinder words into the air, Runa swiftly turns to Zandros before Isidor has a chancer to ask any question of her own. "Our questions can wait. What do you want to share?"

Date: 2020-03-08 03:13 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
The three Durants stand in front of him like statues. As though his words have sucked all the air out of the room. What he says doesn't seem real. How could it? None of this has touched their lives in a tangible way. In a way they can reach out and feel. Apart from the maimed soldier in front of them it has only taken away, not brought anything. So they stand in varying states of disbelief, wrestling with their own inner monologues. Waiting for the air to return to the room.

Runa breaks the stillness first, stepping up to him and wrapping her arms around him tightly. "I'm so sorry," she whispers. "I'm so, so sorry."

Viatorus rocks on the spot, pale and nauseous, until finally he guides himself to a seat. His head is filled with water, with too many feelings and thoughts to process them all at once. So instead he sits quietly, hoping they wash over him.

With Runa embracing Zandros, and Viatorus staring at the floor, only the paladin can still see Isidor. Her head is still held high, stuck in its proud and determined position, but the pain in her eyes and her twisted features are unmistakable.

He's wrong. He must be wrong. This must be a trick, she thinks to herself. Is Harrowheart hiding, so that they can be together in peace? He can't be dead. He's already dead. She told him to return. He wouldn't go away and die. He wouldn't dare. Zandros must be wrong. He's lying. You're lying, she wants to scream at him, but no sound comes out. Her throat is petrified, unable to make a sound. Unable to plead, Please tell me you're lying.

Date: 2020-03-12 09:23 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
How badly she wants to scream, as if that would make him take his words back. The effort of staying still and silent makes her jaw tremble until she can't bear to look at him anymore. She can't bear to be faced with an unrelenting truth like this. So she looks away before he does, and steps into the kitchen. She needs a drink, and neither Viatorus nor Runa keep it anywhere convenient. Perhaps that's for the best. That way they can't see her hands shake as she pours herself a scotch, downs it, and then takes out glasses for the rest of them.

When Runa steps away from Zandros she's made a damp spot on her shoulder, and quietly wipes at her eyes with soft sniffles, Isidor returns and hands Runa a glass. Then Isidor presses another glass into Zandros' hand and meets his gaze. It's stony, but... not quite cold. If this is true, if it's really true, then she's glad he told her, rather than leaving her wondering and waiting. And when she steps away to get the drinks for herself and her brother she preoccupies herself with thoughts of how she might check. Will she need to scour the battlefield herself? Would she be able to scry for him...?

Those thoughts keep her steady. Ostensibly steadier than Viatorus who seems completely vacant until she forces the drink into his hands. At first he jolts slightly, shaken from his inner thoughts, and then murmurs a thank you and stares into the amber liquid.

After a minute of not drinking it he asks, "Do death knights get funerals?"

Date: 2020-03-14 03:34 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
Isidor's eyes shoot over to Zandros as if he'd just proposed something horrific, and then over to her brother when he speaks.

"He deserves one," Viatorus says glumly.

"We'll do something for him," Runa agrees as she tries her best to get herself together. "Not tonight, but we'll arrange something."

In the midst of all this grief, Isidor's fierce glaring could be taken as a more soft-hearted expression of pain, and Runa is certainly taking is as such. It's not, though, and Viatorus would know that if he could raise his eyes from the ground. The patron has to catch herself from squeezing her glass too tightly, lest it shatter. So instead she drains it and sets it down.

"I have work to do," she declares. It's the first thing that comes to mind to get her out of this hellishly restrained atmosphere.

Runa turns to Zandros. "You should stay with Isidor." And then to her sister-in-law. "He shouldn't be alone, and neither should you."

Date: 2020-03-14 04:58 pm (UTC)
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That response startles Isidor and she frowns. Her eyes dart accusingly to Runa and then flit back to Zandros. She does her best to wrangle her expression into one of concern, but there's a terseness behind it. "Shouldn't you go home? Your mother, your sister... They'll want you close."

Date: 2020-03-14 05:48 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
Well she can't begrudge him that. Wouldn't she feel the same way in his position?

"Fine." She sets down her glass and gets her PINpoint out.

"Take care of each other," she tells Runa and Viatorus, giving them both a serious look before turning to Zandros and holding up a palm. "When you're ready."

Date: 2020-03-15 01:18 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
Somehow her apartment feels colder than when she left it. Dull and more... empty. She's glad of him stepping away, and she continues to make that distance, stopping in front of the cupboard where the alcohol hides. Her fingertips touch the surface, steadying her, but she doesn't pour anything right now. She can't. Not around him. She can't scream or drown herself into a stupor while he's here.

Perhaps it's best. So that he can't see the clenching of her jaw when he echoes her thoughts. So that he can't see her bitterness and rage before she shuffles it back under her cool expression.

She looks over at him and folds her arms. "Then you can tell me how to confirm what you're saying. Tell me how to meet his commander, or find his body."

Date: 2020-03-15 12:40 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
Not knowing is such a curse. One which every Durant rails against in some manner or another. Even to be left wondering how it is that he 'died' leaves her feeling nauseous and she has to swallow hard not to get stuck on that thought. Her eyes prickle as her mind instinctively tries to guess at whether Zandros means he was torn apart, exploded, crushed... No, no, she has to focus!

"Do you really know so little of me?" she asks, and tilts her chin up. "I will find out. You can help me or you can stand back, but I will find out."

"How are commanders in Acherus summoned? Or communicated with?" If she should avoid going there then maybe she can bring them to her. "I could scry for him, of course... Is the battlefield still dangerous?"

Date: 2020-03-16 05:37 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
Comfort in inaction? It's definitely not Isidor's way. Doing nothing makes her feel helpless, which she can handle less than not knowing. Even more importantly: If she stops she might fall to her knees and scream until her throat is raw and... she can't. Not now. Not in front of anyone. Especially not in front of Zandros.

"They will listen to me or I will go to them for my answers." She tilts her head, eyes fixing on him so as to erase any notion of protesting. "Which I will have. One way or another."

"Now." She turns to face him properly. "Tell me everything I need to know. About your death knight contact, and the one who you saw on the battlefield. Tell me what happened. Everything."

Date: 2020-04-23 09:14 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
He'll hold a conversation with me, Isidor thinks, and although her jaw twitches she manages to keep her confident raging silent. Zandros is right, though, all that matters is that he's a death knight, and one who might help. It's difficult to tell what tactics might work best against a strange death knight. He comes to family affairs, though, for his wife. There's something there. Something to work with.

At least she has one death knight that might be a pleasant enough experience. The same can not be said of the one Zandros describes next, his words getting a grimace as Isidor puts two and two together. True, perhaps there are many women death knights with grotesque throat wounds, but the Blightcaster would be worth tracking down either way. Or, even better, her night elf friend.

"I know her," she says once she's pushed the memory of the stench of rot out of her mind.

As much as she doesn't want to deal with that woman again, two leads are better than none. It's enough to relax her, at least. She has a goal again. A distraction.

When she turns to Zandros, she's significantly calmer, her hands folded in front of her. "When is the soonest we can speak with Ademar?"

Date: 2020-04-24 09:54 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] heirtothedragonsfire
Isidor holds her gaze on Zandros while he hesitates, but it softens when he relents. She shows him to the spare room in her apartment before announcing that she needs to rest. Nobody will really believe that, but it gives her an excuse to go into her bedroom alone for some peace and quiet. The apartment, bar her locked study, is free and open to Zandros to explore. Perhaps that might even distract him from the sound of Isidor pacing back and forth in her room.

Eventually she lies down, and although she can't sleep, at least she has a plan to keep her thoughts off of less pleasant topics.

The next day she's dressed in black, a modest dress that stops below the knees and just shy of long sleeves. She only has time to appreciate the efficiency and speed of Zandros' servants and sister before she finds herself in an altogether different environment. For a moment she's distracted by her surroundings, but then Zandros' offered hand takes up her attention. It takes her a moment to accept it, but once she does it's with certainty. This way he might remain distracted from his lost arm which, in turn, might help him focus. These are hopes which are quickly dashed with Marsha's intense greeting.

Immediately there's a grimaced-smile and eyes that are a touch wide as she turns from Marsha to Zandros to beam 'You could have warmed me' directly into his head, and then smiles back at their host. How she manages not to twitch at the idea of leaving the 'gentlemen to talk' she doesn't know.

It takes a split second to reply as she composes herself into what she considers her best bet (without burning all the bridges she meets).

"What a kind offer, but..." She pauses and rests a hand on Zandros' arm, looking at him sadly before turning back to Marsha. "My dear Zandros has been through so much, I think he would benefit greatly from some gentle, familiar company. He needs all the kind care he can get. Biscuits and tea wouldn't hurt either."

It's at this point she puts a hand on Zandros' lower back and pushes him closer to Marsha while she steps bit by bit towards the man in the corner. "You'll do me this favour, won't you? I promise I'll do my best not to bore your husband..."

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